I still can't sleep tonight. It is already 2.43 am. My are eyes are not tired, i have this terrible headache and my mind is still telling me to write more. I just finished writing a post and I am still not done doing it. It's a good thing, I am in the mood to write and express my thoughts. I missed days like this when I am not busy at work and I got to spend time with myself. I am sitting on my bed in complete darkness and the laptop is the only source of light.
I want to write this to remind me of the good things at the start of 2009. I am very forgetful that is why i am keeping an online journal so that I can read it anytime i want and in the years to come. So here's how it goes.
November 26, 2008, I sent a message to a perfect stranger. I don't know her and neither does she. We have only one friend in common in FS, Lore. I was amused by the edited pics that she and her friend submitted to Lore. They are all cute and very original. I was kinda hesitant at first because she might ignore me or might ask who am I, she might plague me with odd questions...I had a playlist created at imeem with Lore's acoustic songs that i ripped from youtube. I just wanted to share it with this person. I can say she is also fond Lore and she may like what i created. It took more than one week i guess to send a message to her. But then in an instant, i decided to write one message. I send it to this person without expecting a reply. I was busy checking FS pics and my messenger prompted that there is a new message in my inbox. I checked it out and it was indeed a reply. To cut the chase, we starting chatting.
I can say she is a good person by the way she talks on chat. A very warm hearted individual with lots of sense of humor. We talked a lot in chat and we became good friends. We clicked and a new friendship bloomed instantly. By the way her name is Kath, 19, nursing student. She is still young but she talks like a grown up. I admire her for her sensitivity and for her attentiveness. She is a good listener too. Cracking jokes are her forte . In the office, Pam will always ask me why I was suddenly laughing. It was because of her jokes. There was no dull moment evertyime we chatted. We talked about life, friends, experiences and almost anything under the sun. We got closer and closer everyday. I felt the closeness even though we are miles away. By the way, Im in the UAE, while she's in the Philippines. Im 23 and she's 19. hehehe. There was no day we don't chat, and it seemed like a routine. I got used to it somehow and i bet she was too. I was then happy. On december 26, I evidently forgot to turn on my laptop because I fell asleep. I was celebrating christmas eve and did not sleep the whole day. I got so tired and just slept. Unknowingly, she was wondering where I was, why i wasnt online and she hasnt heard from me that day. She texted my chikka account, sent offline mesgs to my ym id, sent a message to friendster, and even sent a message to my best friend asking where the hell am i. Sad to say, I was not able to read it and answered her calls. I was in deep sleep gaining my energy back since I will be working on the 27th.
When I woke up, I read all her messages and I felt guilty. I felt sorry why I did not bother to send a single message to tell that I am alive and breathing... Felt guilty for making her wonder. She told me she was getting paranoid. I was so touched by what she did. Considering we just talk in chat and I just known her for a month. Only a few does that. Only a few cared and only a few made me feel special. I am overwhelmed and I didnt understand what I was feeling. I considered myself aloof before.I don't entertain new friends. If i dont like you at first glance, then I would not be friends with you. That is my defense mechanism, to protect myself from pain of getting hurt. I don't let anyone in because I am afraid when people leave.
See?The connection was significant. The bond we made was so strong. How different our worlds are but we never ceased to care. It is an extraordinary feeling of having friends with a complete stranger. Someone you never knew and suddenly you will feel you know her a lifetime. Someone who share the same thoughts and battle different ideas with you. The one who will feed you with memories and let you enjoy the excitement of anticipation of meeting in the future. Lets you wonder what would life be if you haven't known each other. And makes you smile for no reason at all. I am glad all of this happened, a reason to be happier because I know that someone always knew me somewhere, somehow at an unlikely situation. . I sensed a familiar feeling, a welcoming presence that awakened amidst a sorrowful soul. The same feeling the first time I believed in bestfriends, true friends and soulmates.
To be exact, we have been in constant communication for almost 2 months now. There is no day we don't chat.It is becoming a routine and im missing her already. My bestfriend, Pamela, befriended her as well. And they got pretty close too. Pamela used to tell me that she can see the sheer likeness between me and Kath. We have the same attitudes (no wonder we are both aquarians), almost the same interests and the same feelings when it comes to friendships. Pamela, Kathrena and I are like sisters now. The friendship bond we share is rare.
To sum it up, Me and Pamela would like to tell you these words. There is no day we never talked about you and how lucky we are to have you as our friend. Pamela told me I am attached to two persons now, which is a good thing. So listen to what our heart says.
Dear Kath,
We know that this is becoming awkward of putting these things in to writing. We don't know you personally but we are connected somehow. You were the one who lifted us up during the times we are so sad. Your jokes were never corny and we can't stop from laughing. Your words of encouragement are far greater than we thought it would be from a 19 year old girl. You made some sense out of nothing. You spoke kind words that eased our aching hearts, filled up the gaps of longingness and gave us the space of belonging. From now on, our sentiments are yours to share. Our life are yours to live. Our hearts are yours to love. We are yours and together we are one. You proved yourself worthy of our friendship that is why you are at the beacon of our fortress. We let you in our lives without hesitations.
You brought us so much joy and inspiration so suddenly. We were caught in an overwhelming situation that we don't want to loose it. You are so important to our existence now. We are so attached to you and we don't know why. We love you so dearly and misses you every moment of evey single day. I know you got everything we said, but behind these words are feelings better left unsaid. We never expected this to happen. A friendship that is so rare and fragile that left us in state of awe.
Remember last January 20 while you were drunk and trying(don't get it wrong) to be sober, we made a pact of the sister bond. You told me you remember everything we chatted that night and was perfect and amazing though i had doubts about it. You were under the influence of Jose Cuervo, nonetheless, I believed everything you said. It was really perfect and amazing. I felt the sincerity.
I asked you once how you felt, and you told me there were no words can tell. I believed that coz i felt the same way too and neither does Pam. We are keeping you close to our heart. You will always be our little sister. We will never take you for granted. You are in our circle now.
We can't wait the day to finally meet you personally. You will be filled with hugs and DUKOLs!
I love you sik, Pam loves you too. We are happy to have you
Thanks for everything.. That's all i can think of at this very moment. Thank you and thank you.
Til here'
Love
--
ineth and pam.
I know you are reading this now... til my next posts... ciao...
completed at 2.09 pm uae
I want to write this to remind me of the good things at the start of 2009. I am very forgetful that is why i am keeping an online journal so that I can read it anytime i want and in the years to come. So here's how it goes.
November 26, 2008, I sent a message to a perfect stranger. I don't know her and neither does she. We have only one friend in common in FS, Lore. I was amused by the edited pics that she and her friend submitted to Lore. They are all cute and very original. I was kinda hesitant at first because she might ignore me or might ask who am I, she might plague me with odd questions...I had a playlist created at imeem with Lore's acoustic songs that i ripped from youtube. I just wanted to share it with this person. I can say she is also fond Lore and she may like what i created. It took more than one week i guess to send a message to her. But then in an instant, i decided to write one message. I send it to this person without expecting a reply. I was busy checking FS pics and my messenger prompted that there is a new message in my inbox. I checked it out and it was indeed a reply. To cut the chase, we starting chatting.
I can say she is a good person by the way she talks on chat. A very warm hearted individual with lots of sense of humor. We talked a lot in chat and we became good friends. We clicked and a new friendship bloomed instantly. By the way her name is Kath, 19, nursing student. She is still young but she talks like a grown up. I admire her for her sensitivity and for her attentiveness. She is a good listener too. Cracking jokes are her forte . In the office, Pam will always ask me why I was suddenly laughing. It was because of her jokes. There was no dull moment evertyime we chatted. We talked about life, friends, experiences and almost anything under the sun. We got closer and closer everyday. I felt the closeness even though we are miles away. By the way, Im in the UAE, while she's in the Philippines. Im 23 and she's 19. hehehe. There was no day we don't chat, and it seemed like a routine. I got used to it somehow and i bet she was too. I was then happy. On december 26, I evidently forgot to turn on my laptop because I fell asleep. I was celebrating christmas eve and did not sleep the whole day. I got so tired and just slept. Unknowingly, she was wondering where I was, why i wasnt online and she hasnt heard from me that day. She texted my chikka account, sent offline mesgs to my ym id, sent a message to friendster, and even sent a message to my best friend asking where the hell am i. Sad to say, I was not able to read it and answered her calls. I was in deep sleep gaining my energy back since I will be working on the 27th.
When I woke up, I read all her messages and I felt guilty. I felt sorry why I did not bother to send a single message to tell that I am alive and breathing... Felt guilty for making her wonder. She told me she was getting paranoid. I was so touched by what she did. Considering we just talk in chat and I just known her for a month. Only a few does that. Only a few cared and only a few made me feel special. I am overwhelmed and I didnt understand what I was feeling. I considered myself aloof before.I don't entertain new friends. If i dont like you at first glance, then I would not be friends with you. That is my defense mechanism, to protect myself from pain of getting hurt. I don't let anyone in because I am afraid when people leave.
See?The connection was significant. The bond we made was so strong. How different our worlds are but we never ceased to care. It is an extraordinary feeling of having friends with a complete stranger. Someone you never knew and suddenly you will feel you know her a lifetime. Someone who share the same thoughts and battle different ideas with you. The one who will feed you with memories and let you enjoy the excitement of anticipation of meeting in the future. Lets you wonder what would life be if you haven't known each other. And makes you smile for no reason at all. I am glad all of this happened, a reason to be happier because I know that someone always knew me somewhere, somehow at an unlikely situation. . I sensed a familiar feeling, a welcoming presence that awakened amidst a sorrowful soul. The same feeling the first time I believed in bestfriends, true friends and soulmates.
To be exact, we have been in constant communication for almost 2 months now. There is no day we don't chat.It is becoming a routine and im missing her already. My bestfriend, Pamela, befriended her as well. And they got pretty close too. Pamela used to tell me that she can see the sheer likeness between me and Kath. We have the same attitudes (no wonder we are both aquarians), almost the same interests and the same feelings when it comes to friendships. Pamela, Kathrena and I are like sisters now. The friendship bond we share is rare.
To sum it up, Me and Pamela would like to tell you these words. There is no day we never talked about you and how lucky we are to have you as our friend. Pamela told me I am attached to two persons now, which is a good thing. So listen to what our heart says.
Dear Kath,
We know that this is becoming awkward of putting these things in to writing. We don't know you personally but we are connected somehow. You were the one who lifted us up during the times we are so sad. Your jokes were never corny and we can't stop from laughing. Your words of encouragement are far greater than we thought it would be from a 19 year old girl. You made some sense out of nothing. You spoke kind words that eased our aching hearts, filled up the gaps of longingness and gave us the space of belonging. From now on, our sentiments are yours to share. Our life are yours to live. Our hearts are yours to love. We are yours and together we are one. You proved yourself worthy of our friendship that is why you are at the beacon of our fortress. We let you in our lives without hesitations.
You brought us so much joy and inspiration so suddenly. We were caught in an overwhelming situation that we don't want to loose it. You are so important to our existence now. We are so attached to you and we don't know why. We love you so dearly and misses you every moment of evey single day. I know you got everything we said, but behind these words are feelings better left unsaid. We never expected this to happen. A friendship that is so rare and fragile that left us in state of awe.
Remember last January 20 while you were drunk and trying(don't get it wrong) to be sober, we made a pact of the sister bond. You told me you remember everything we chatted that night and was perfect and amazing though i had doubts about it. You were under the influence of Jose Cuervo, nonetheless, I believed everything you said. It was really perfect and amazing. I felt the sincerity.
I asked you once how you felt, and you told me there were no words can tell. I believed that coz i felt the same way too and neither does Pam. We are keeping you close to our heart. You will always be our little sister. We will never take you for granted. You are in our circle now.
We can't wait the day to finally meet you personally. You will be filled with hugs and DUKOLs!
I love you sik, Pam loves you too. We are happy to have you
Thanks for everything.. That's all i can think of at this very moment. Thank you and thank you.
Til here'
Love
--
ineth and pam.
I know you are reading this now... til my next posts... ciao...
completed at 2.09 pm uae
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