This is to remind me that today, I am lonely

oh here i am again, getting ready to get this post done and i promise it would be a short one. I just got nothing to do today that i kept on listening to Evan and Jarod's The Distance over and over again for the Nth time. I really like the song for its simplicity, and the lyrics. The words really match the feelings I have today. I miss a lot of people who really matters to me. I haven't recovered yet from a less than a month stay vacation in the Philippines. Memories are still very fresh and they keep on playing over and over again. Sometimes, I can feel that I am crying while sleeping. When I wake up, I close my eyes for a minute and wished that when i will open my eyes I'll see the familiar faces, but then again I am disappointed. I always see this very boring ceiling. Sigh! I long for the smiles and laughter, the food ,the weather, the friends and family and everything that serves my memory right. Distance is the thing i hate today. It just hurts so bad that I am here while my thoughts are everywhere. I need to recover from this homesickness... I misssssssssssss them all.I miss them....allllll... If there is a word that describes it, then that is what i am feeling..

So that I wouldn't get bored, I went into a cleaning marathon spree....I just cleaned the entire flat, brushed the sink, mopped the floor, cleand the dishes, washed the clothes and a lot more.I got tired, felt dizzy so i decided to have a break. I also watched smallville, greys anatomy and supernatural. It helped me for a while but when i sat down and took a look at my laptop, i saw some pictures, everything went back again. Like flashes of memories playing the tune on my mind randomly. All I know is that i miss them and i love them soooo much and waiting for next year will be a long wait. I am not being impatient but it is soooooooo long to count. But I need to focus and motivate myself.... I need to tell myself it wouldn't be long...I will see them all again... again...at the right time. sigh...

To remind myself of how important it is to value such memories, i decided to post this short blog. This is to remind me that today, May 16, I am lonely and I badly wished I am in Cebu, be with the people I love.
This post is dedicated to several wonderful persons. my bestfriends Kathy, to my family lola, bajep,kent eloisa, to my cousins,aunts and uncles, to my new family, the agudera family, to Meme, Dadad, Gwendy, Fitz, Tiya, Manoy and etc, to my ate Lore, te anj and baby gee of course, to the batos, Nikki, Kenji, Tiklah, Blants. I want to thank you for the memories we've shared. It keeps me alive and inspire me to do more good to the world. I hope by my simple act of kindness, I was able to impart a part of INETH to you. I love you and missing you terribly. I will be okay soon...Time will heal me...